Living

Our arts, our occupations, our marriages, our religion, we have not chosen, but society has chosen for us. We are parlour soldiers. We shun the rugged battle of fate, where strength is born. – Ralph Waldo Emerson
“Next to Resistance, rational thought is the artist or entrepreneurs worst enemy. Bad things happen when we employ rational thought, because rational thought comes from the ego. Instead, we want to work from the Self, that is, from instinct and intuition, from the unconscious.
A child has no trouble believing the unbelievable, nor does the genius or the madman. Its only you and I, with our big brains and our tiny hearts, who doubt and overthink and hesitate.” - Steven Pressfield, Do the Work
The idea of “being realistic” holds all of us back. From starting a business or quitting a job to dating someone who may not be our type or moving to a new place – getting “real” often means putting your dreams on hold.
Today, let’s take a step away from rational thought and dare to be bold. What’s one thing you’ve always wanted to accomplish but have been afraid to pursue? Write it down. Also write down the obstacles in your way of reaching your goal. Finally, write down a tangible plan to overcome each obstacle.
The only thing left is to, you know, actually go make it happen. What are you waiting for?

That is rather amusing, even though I'm behind on these posts I didn't read this one until after I wrote the first one. Goddamnit choosing a goal has come so much sooner then I expected. I'm at an honest to god loss. I know this is all about trusting yourself, but there is so much of me to trust. I could go with so many different goals and passions and I know that the next day I will wonder why I picked that one. I've made so many steps to reach goals that personally I thought were impossible dreams, and I've made them realities. I'm happy. I'm content. I don't feel like I need to really change anything... Stupid tough questions making me look at my life and go holy crap I am doing what I want to do... So I'll trust myself and say this isn't the time to focus on me.

My grandmother just passed on today, I'm trying and failing/succeeding to work things out with ex. Living is my only goal right. Only thing in my way death and all evil things. So there, I'm pretty sure I can not die for a while. I'll live to make another, better, more awesome goal.