Failure

The words are all I know
The world that spins around in my head
It starts to slow, when I look to express
All that I know, and betray all I don't

I'm manipulative and that is a fact,
I always try to push it to the back of my mind
And yet when emotion rolls out of my chest
The words fail to preform the desired dance
They trip off my tongue,
Or fail to come out at all
In that moment I am crushed
Failure presses down on me
Frustration pushes me in

I wish I could be more eloquent
I wish I had a biting wit.
But I am nothing but a soul
Wandering this earth,
Trying to communicate
To give you understanding

And so when I fall,
I die a little inside.
My attempts to control
Are lost and I find myself breaking
Again