Experiments

So I have gone off facebook for a month. I had my roommate change my password and then logged out. Mostly because I hated feeling like I am missing something. All these people posting on each others walls, being friendly, and me, just sitting there watching. It makes me feel so alone. So I've decided that I will fix the problem. So for the next month I will not be signing on, I've had my roommate change my password and logged out. Hopefully she doesn't do anything mean to me while I'm away.

Along those lines I've started making a checklist of things to do, trying to become more organized and feel better. Because this whole mopey depressive thing is ruining my life, and I have to get it under control.

Love is All You Need

I call bullshit. Love is most definitely not all we need. And some of you might say well no shit! We need food, we need water, we need shelter. Fine, I'm talking about emotional needs.

I had a really good conversation with my roommate about things that have been going on these days. What I want out of my current romantic relationship. I don't want to talk about it here cause he might still read this stupid old thing, but I'm not sure. Though I'm bursting to talk about it.

I'm bursting to talk about everything I've discovered. But I'm scared shitless that this is done. Even though I know life will go on. I am still scared because I'm finally starting to accept myself. I keep saying that, but I feel like the self is as deep as the ocean and we might never figure out who we totally are. And I'm okay with that. I want to spend the rest of my days enjoying the gift I've been given.

So here I am, debating if I should post this.