Skills
Learn basic archery
Practice reiki
Practice a form of dance
Places
Visit Sweden, and meet my relatives
Visit New Zeeland
Spend at least a year backpacking through Europe
Entertainment
See War Horse, the broadway play
See a Broadway play on Broadway
See something in London's West End
Achievements
Work on a Broadway play
Work on a Hollywood film
Work for Wetta Workshop
Write a book
Experiences
Beat Cancer!
Have a family
Become a Buddhist Nun
Friday, June 29, 2012
Saturday, June 23, 2012
A Life In Question
It was cancer.
I'm still waiting for it to hit me.
Everything feels so normal. Until my body starts failing me.
The emotions start flooding me. I've always been emotional but now my emotions have gotten even stronger and my faulty thinking has gotten even more dangerous. I feel like I'm a super human. Everything I feel is like a wave, it hits me like a wall and all I can do is decide if I want to fight it or ride it out.
I look back on the past three years and I start to see my illness develop, you see it wasn't just cancer. I had an auto-immune disease that was attacking my thyroid but since my levels were fine nobody could figure out what was wrong until it possibly developed into cancer.
They say hindsight is 20/20 I feel like its even more than that. I see everything so clearly now. I can't regret it because there was nothing I could do. There is still nothing I can do, the world is pushing me forward but I need a break. I want to go out west again.
I'm not sure how I am going to get it, but I need a break from normal so I can get my life back on track.
I'm still waiting for it to hit me.
Everything feels so normal. Until my body starts failing me.
The emotions start flooding me. I've always been emotional but now my emotions have gotten even stronger and my faulty thinking has gotten even more dangerous. I feel like I'm a super human. Everything I feel is like a wave, it hits me like a wall and all I can do is decide if I want to fight it or ride it out.
I look back on the past three years and I start to see my illness develop, you see it wasn't just cancer. I had an auto-immune disease that was attacking my thyroid but since my levels were fine nobody could figure out what was wrong until it possibly developed into cancer.
They say hindsight is 20/20 I feel like its even more than that. I see everything so clearly now. I can't regret it because there was nothing I could do. There is still nothing I can do, the world is pushing me forward but I need a break. I want to go out west again.
I'm not sure how I am going to get it, but I need a break from normal so I can get my life back on track.
Tuesday, June 5, 2012
Thyroid
I am an amazing person. I have pushed through a chaotic family. I've struggled through bullying. I've pushed through depression and anxiety. And I've dragged myself through my own life. And finally I think I'm on top of the world and I can do this, and I'm looking death in the face. I hope to be able to say more but I'm experiencing a bit a of a brain fog.
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